Dirty Harry

Love the Gorillaz

lesson of the day

Sometimes things are broken.
Sometimes they can be fixed.
Sometimes... a lot of the time it is neccessary to know when to give up on the broken items.


thats it

Reason 2..Since flightplan didn't work

Mountains, hills and forests cover over two thirds of Japan, while residential and industrial areas account for less than ten percent of land area. This is a little known fact among foreigners, who tend to visit mainly the heavily urbanized and industrialized regions around Tokyo and Osaka and along the Tokaido and Sanyo coasts. The Japanese fauna varies from brown bears in Hokkaido to tropical snakes in Okinawa. Japanese monkeys live throughout the country except in Hokkaido. Other famous Japanese animals include the crane, the Japanese deer, the fox (kitsune), and the raccoon dog (tanuki). Don't go...because all these animals will eat you. And the forests will grow and block your apt. Ok, now you can stay!

I was always taught that when writing something, anything really, you should start with a shocking statement. Something that draws readers in and makes them say, "What!?" I think I have one of those statements now...

I can feel my bowels loosening. Not because of diarrhea or some obvious need to poo. I wish that were the case. Today. This week I've felt my bowels moving because of apprehension, anxiety, FEAR. I'm scared. Plain and simple. And when I get scared my body tenses but my bowels enjoy a wonderful sense of freedom that ultimately only serves to heighten my tension and further intensify my fear. It really is a bit of a... Um... I'm not sure what should go here. Maybe self fulfilling prophecy, but nothing is being predicted.
As I was saying this week has been kinda nerve-racking. I'm quitting my job next week. After 8 long months of dealing with the idiots at Cingular I am getting away. Most of the idiots in surrounding Cingular don't really work there, but pay for services there. I'm not gonna talk about that though because soon it will not be my concern. Anyway I'm leaving and I'm in a bit of a precarious situation. I've been written up so many times at Cingular that I fear that I might get fired any day now. That doesn't really bother me. I have a job lined up and could care less about Cingular. I just don't want them to steal my joy away from me. On my last day I want to go off on one customer. Just one. Then I'll be able to quit happily. I've been dreaming up ways to tell a customer that I think they're stupid and not deserving of a cell phone. I have a pretty good script memorized in my head. I just need time and that one bitchy customer. I can't get fired yet. I have to quit on my own terms.
Cingular isn't what's really bothering me though. I'm leaving the country just about two weeks... Exactly. I'm nervous. I've never been on a plain and I've never left the country. I'm the only person in my family to leave the country for reasons not associated with the military. I don't have any relatives to give me words of wisdom or offer to write me letters of encouragement. Not that I really need those words. My relatives really haven't provided me any real encouragement over the years. I'm just that weird nephew or the strange cousin. I at least know them. I'm not gonna know anyone in Japan. I'm gonna have to like make a family of my coworkers.

too piss them off or not to piss them off? that is the question.

My flight to Japan is gonna be the longest day of my life. I leave mobile, Alabama at about 6 in the morning and arrive in Japan the following day at around 5 pm. I'm gonna spend the day chasing the sun over the US and eventually across the ocean. I wonder will the birds sound the same there. Will they sing or chirp in some strange, clipped, screaming voice.

Can you scream and chirp at the same time?
People shouldn't chirp anyway.


I know the trees will be different. And the fish. And the smells. And the people. I'm moving into one of the most homogeneous cultures in the world! What the hell am I thinking? Am I even thinking?

sigh. there go my bowels again

ho hum

I wanted to link this entry to my friend rasha's blog, but she isn't accepting links or something. That's beside the point though. I'm not gonna do a whole friend introduction thing like she is doing but I would like to mention one of my friends, Christina. I actually feel kinda bad about mentioning her here. It is not really my style to mention someone by name before I thrash them. (i've always wanted to say that. "i'll thrash you!" ha!)
Christina for some reason has ditched me. She's done the same to Rasha, but I can't really speak for Rasha about that. Anyway, she ditched me. I can't really say that I'm shocked. She has a new man who she is actually planning on marrying. It only seems right that she remove a few distractions from her life and I guess that is what I have become to her.

Am I too demanding? I don't think so.
Am I too judgmental? Maybe. I have opinions which may clash with others sometimes.

The reason that I ask these questions is because that is the only reason I can imagine for Christina ditching me. Apparently she found our 7+ year friendship to be too demanding in the face of her impending marriage or she found that may disapproval of her crappy little boy-man was just too negative for her life. At any rate she hasn't called me or returned my e-mails in about 3 weeks. Maybe more than that.
Normally, I wouldn't be bothered by this. If she doesn't want to talk for awhile I usually understand and am more than willing to give her her space. Its just that I am on the verge of leaving the country and I would like to get to see my friend, my good friend, just one more time before I leave. At the rate she is going I may never see or hear from her again.


That is really all I have to say about that right now. I'm actually pretty pissed at her, but my anger never translates well. It always comes off as me being some kinda calm and controlled person. I'm actually the most out of control person I know. (i'm sure we all say that. for me it is actually true though.)

Flightplan

Tommie, I thought you knew that I changed your flight plans. Yeah, you will be leaving on August 13, 2007. I'm sorry, but we need you here longer.

Silver Hawks

This is like the best show of all time. It is totally respnsible for all that is wrong with my head.