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Mad as Hell: The Aftermath

You know this entry is a little late in coming. Actually it is very late in coming. If you recall in my previous entry I talked about Jun sleeping at my place one night. After he arrived and had fallen asleep my parents called me and I without thinking told them that my friend was over and was sleeping in my bed.

I recently came out to my parents and they are not taking it to well. So my parents took me innocently saying that my friend is sleeping in my bed as my FRIEND WHO I AM DATING AND PROBABLY FUCKED BEFORE YOU CALLED is sleeping in my bed. At the time of the call they acted with a great bit of calm. The following Monday I called my mom to just talk a bit. She seemed upset and cold. I assumed that maybe she and my father had had another argument or she was just not having a good day. So that call was very short.

The next day, a Tuesday, my dad called me in the morning and basically asked why I didn't care about the family and he informed me that I had made my mother upset by talking about my "friend." My father and I share similar tempers. If you speak to us suddenly with an accusatory and disrespectful tone we become instantly angry and... "loud." I unlike my father can resist the urge to scream for about 15 seconds. I used those seconds to inform my father that I will call him back and hung up.

I think I took about twenty minutes to eat a sandwich and talk to my guinea pig. Yes, I talk to animals and I like to believe that they don't understand a word I say.

After my twenty minute break I called my father back and we talked. Actually we argued. He accused me of not caring about my family. He expressed his desire to have grandchildren and he told me that being gay was a death sentence. He also implied that I was not a man because I was gay and then my mom came home. She got on the phone and the conversation shifted to religious reason for why being gay is wrong. I was told that being gay was a choice and if I wanted to I could change. They seemed shocked that I was not making an effort to change.

All of those things made me upset, pissed, and wee bit amused. I actually anticipated my parents eventually expressing those types of ideas. So ultimately I wasn't that upset.

I just get really frustrated with religious arguments. The bible which I haven't really studied deeply is, like all books, open to interpretation. I don't know most of those interpretations. My parents have their interpretation memorized and they hold it close to their heart. Anything that I say in opposition to their opinion is met with laughing and shouting.

Today I am reading some comments on homosexuality being caused by genetics and some of the comments are amazing. The arguments for and against homosexuality are very interesting. I have to admit that I am taking notes. I want to be better prepared for the next times my parents and I argue. It is so difficult and I would say unfair to try to argue with two people at one time.

I can tell that my parents still love me and are concerned about me, but right now their way of saying it is lacking in finesse. Normally I call home about 2 or 3 times a month. I am down to 1 maybe 2 now and I really don't have any desire to change that.

Dating

What is the point? Really. What is the point... the purpose of dating?

When I was younger I had very few opinions on the subject. It was another word for courting and therefore open to the scrutiny and teasing of parents and relatives. I have memories of my aunts pointing and cooing in that annoyingly condescending voice that adults use to tease children, "Oh look! They're courting." I don't think I know of any person who ever found that type of talk pleasurable.

Anyway, dating when I was younger was something to be avoided. As I grew older and realized that my penis did more than piss my opinion of dating changed. Dating became an unavoidable step to dependable booty. In some ways I still hold that opinion but now it is starting to change. Booty is important but I want more.

How much more?

I am not sure about that. A life commitment seems a bit big, but I think I just need to know that I am important to someone.

You know? How do you even asks someone about how important you are to them?

That type of question seems like a conversation killer. Like "POW," and the conversation is dead.

If a person succeeds in deciding how much more they want from dating then what?

Should they start dating people as if they were holding auditions? Is that what dating is for? To audition people? To see if they have that thing you want?

Yes, My Lord

Most of my friends know that I like anime. A lot. Some, a select few who are actually living on borrowed time, would call it an obsession. They are crazy and maintaining that theory is only a sign of their insanity.

My friend Dodzi has requested that I watch a new anime, Code: Geass. The spelling of the name is actually up for debate. I have seen it on the manga cover spelled as "Giess" but in the anime translation they spell it as "Geass". The spelling actually isn't important. Dodzi and I share similar taste in anime: violence, destruction, and great big fireballs. Dodzi likes a few of the cuter things too, but I don't hold it against him. Perfection just isn't right for every one.

Anyway Code: Geass is interesting. It has many good and bad points. Yes, I am going to count them off one by one.

Good:
1. The vast majority of the female characters in the show kick ass without being clad in only a few well placed shoe strings. There are a few exceptions, but they die or go crazy so it is OK. For an anime to not make the female characters wear next to nothing and kick ass is very strange, but this show does it well. It might be because the manga and anime were created by an all female group of artist called Clamp.

2. There are a pretty good amount of twists and turns in the story.
Example: An innocent and totally likable, lame female character who would normally never be able to kick a puppy suddenly goes "crazy" and orders the death of about 20,000 Japanese people.

3. The main character isn't perfect. He lacks fighting skills and his decisions are extremely questionable.
Example: He makes the aforementioned innocent character go crazy.

Bad:
1. 60% percent of the women are lesbians or totally sexless.


2. The soldiers are all tools. When the innocent character went visibly crazy they continued to follow her commands.

3. The main characters are stupid. Like really stupid.

4. The show is in Japanese but for some reason it suddenly slips into really awkward English. They say things like, "blah, blah, blah! Yes, my lord!" There is a whole list of English phrases that they say like that. It all sounds crazy.


I give Code: Geass a 3 out of 5. I believe Dodzi will argue with me about that, but as I have been told by some of my more understanding friends, the things that I say feel final. It is actually more than a feeling. It is a fact and one of these days Dodzi will understand that.

the pressures of this ol` world will not get me down...

Have you ever thought something extremely pricky and wanted to call someone up to tell it to them. That is the way I feel right now. My roommate is cooking french toast and I don`t think I like her jeans. I want to say something about it but i think that would be a little less than nice on my part.

I am feeling a bit tired right now and the filter between the evil portions of my brain and my mouth is being serviced right now.

Damn her ass looks big in those jeans.