The weather is changing.

Here in Nagoya the weather, which about a week ago was hot and humid, has turned quickly to dreary and cold. To most people that would be a bad thing, but to me, a long time hater of heat and humidity, this is nothing short of heaven. Heaven I say. I haven't slept this well in months. The sleep of babies you could say. Unfortunately tonight I am not sleeping.

My mind is troubled. Well not troubled, but definitely wondering.

Why do people seek out relationships? Mates really. The answer is easily known with straight people. The continuation of the species. Nothing else could possibly be more important. Yes I know there is more to it than that, but honestly when you get down to it all those damn emotions of love and shit are simply Nature's idea of insurance. Some people are despicable, but they carry good genes and somewhere in the world some weak minded fool will subconsciously see them for the genetic gold they are and instantly fall head over heels with the fool. At least that is what their hot burning, mildly masochistic loins will be telling them.


But that is straight people. When you ask the same question to gays it becomes a little more complicated. We cannot continue the species. We are, for better or worse, one shot deals. If we have golden genes there is a large chance that it will not worm it's way back into the gene pool. So why seek out mates? What is there to gain? A small family? What is a family really? A social group that we grow in our bedrooms or just a collection of people that we decide to be close to? Why go through the pain and heartache of seeking out one person?

So much heartache. Is it necessary?

I don't know. None of us do. The "dastardly duo" is just what most of us has been taught is best. It is what we should work towards. Is it possible to reject it? Are we programmed... REALLY programmed to want someone? to need someone? to not feel peace until we find someone?

Really?

I just don't know...