I'm Losing Control

I can't help myself anymore. My parents are going out of town Friday and I am so happy. I'm also nervous to. I don't trust myself. I feel that I might break down and take Trevis up on his offer. I just need some sex. I need strength. I have been dreaming about having sex with trevis. I DON'T WANT TO HAVE SEX WITH TREVIS. but I might do it. I need to feel needed. Even if it is just for sex, but I really don't want to sell myself so cheaply. I can do without sex. But I just need to feel loved. (that sounds generic, but it is true.)